Current mood:

anxious

I'm really bored right now... Extremely bored.. and I can't do anything AUGH *antsy *angsty too* FUCKING HELL.

Morbid: Emo is such a trend and I hate it.. It's trendy to hate trends but then a trend is a trend because you made it one. The entire world is spiraling into complete stagnant hell and not even all the drugs in the world could coax new and fresh creativity out of a human mind. Everyone who thinks they are going against all the trends by dying their hair and doin' that funky crap with their clothes.. and doing things that make them stand out in the so called 'crowd of average trendy people', they are wrong. Being untrendy is a trend, you're not being creative you're thinking what a smaller majority of the population already thought about. Not only that but everything has basically been done before because history is a ongoing continuous cycle that repeats itself. What's old is new and when the new get's old then the middle between old and new is old their for it's new. I think so weird... so if you understand, good for you.

One trend I find particularly annoying is the fact that all the emo male bands seem to have to wear makeup and kiss eachother. I have really no complaints <-- everyone who knows me is aware of this. BUT THEY ALL DO IT.
I don't know why everyone get's shocked by it STILL. THEY ALL DO IT. You should just expect it. The only reason why it pisses me off is I believe that they are aware it get's some credentials in attention and do it because they wish for that shock affect to relay through their audience.
The shock affect is even old now... Everyone knows Marylin Mansion is a freak.

Although I appreciate the *emo* 'punk' bands music and I like the sound, they are slowly merging into one.. melodious tone. Its trendy to be rebellious. The world hates you, fuck the world, you hate it too. Anger anger spit flies far. Everything is a trend, everything is dull, everything has been done in some context or another... We'll all end up rotting in our own hopeless cry for creativity or commit suicide from the actualization that nothing is going to change.

My anger comes from my inability to create anything new, I write a poem to find out half the lines are already used... I write a story to find out a similar context to the plot line is already in a book.. I draw something and realize that someone else had the same idea. I'm upset because tv shows sound the same, movies all have the same plotline, everything is categorized into different categories and within the categorizes they are all exactly the same. The music I listen to is all the same just in variations of talent and voices. Lyrics send out the same message, CD covers are the same, music video's are all the same.

I don't think that the end of the world is going to be from some natural disaster that mother earth cruelly places on us. I believe that we are all going to snap from the blatant stupidity in the world and kill ourselves or brutally murder each other.

Yes, i'm in a horrible mood right now. ._. These are the things I think about when I don't have school...